Headache

Okay, right now, I am finding it hard not to care about whether what I write is worthy of my own doing. With the entrance of summer comes the entrance of addiction and I'm finding it hard to find time for writing. Yes, let the world shoot burning arrows at me and stare me down with their dagger eyes. As I have mentioned, I'm finding it hard not to care. I'm still a writer and I feel like everything I write is supposed to turn out good. That is, if I write anything at all.

I feel so umproductive lately and the computer is doing its very best to help by being incredibly fast and alloting an average of three hours before a one hour video is loaded. It just loves me.

Don't get me wrong. I haven't begun to dislike summer. I can never do that...Okay, so the heat sucks but I'm trying to live with it. By my own stupidity, I'm beginning to hate myself for not thinking this all out properly. I took on too much that my head spins everytime I fall asleep. Summer is puting on a good show of readying me for third year...it's keeping me as busy as I was in second year. ><

See, now, I'm being redundant...it's like cramming session all over again...I know I'm not making any sense and it's probably the heat and the addiction getting to me but this is my ranting stage right now and it's a good way of passing time while waiting for yet another thing to load. It's just really hard to explain and -I reiterate- as a writer, I just can't accept that I can't explain it. It's stupid of me to think that I can explain everything but it's worth a shot. By the way, this is just me talking, not all writers, fangirls and bloggers are like this.

Okay, as a desperate attempt at organization I shall recount what the rest of this summer might bring because I live in fear of reliving what it has already brought.

Number one...Hopefully I will finish everything on my summer reading/watching list.
Number two...I shall take on yet more as a summer student.
-number whatever, I'll end up killing my brother-
Number three...I'm getting a summer job.

That's mostly it and I'm too hurried to elaborate right now. This is one of this accounts exclusives, which is the only word that came to mind meaning this won't be pasted in my devArt acount.

-is off once more-